a friends death

AK died last week and today i attended the viewing. it was hard. but then it was not. i think we got to enjoy being wiht her so much. and that we are soo luckly for that. i told chris that life hasnt tunred out event close to what i planned on it being.....divorced, suffereing from an addition, friends dying.....not part of my plan for our THIRTIES!!! Hello, was anyony listening to me?? i guess not.....besides they do'nt have b/c it doesn't make a difference b/c i am powereless over everything but my acctions. ok, nite.